So I’m sitting down on a ledge, looking out to sea. Waves are hitting against the rocks, with a hint of a spring breeze. Thoughts and memories, are playing on my mind. I would share, but I can’t promise you they’ll be lovely or kind. I can’t decide whether to pick my heart or my head, Too many feelings, too many unsaid. I can’t decide whether I want to take a risk, would you take a risk on me? Or to carry on like this, and ‘what will be will be.’ I’m caught up in the moment, hormonal wants and needs, hugging somebody and making them feel okay, or carry on trying to get a degree. A degree in being forward minded, trying to get inside someone who I don’t care. I can’t choose whether I want the glass half empty or the glass half full, It’s like wanting a day off work, without having to make up a petty excuse, I want to kiss you, and be with you every day. At the same time I want to noticed, pay my way. Every day people seem to be changing, innocent girls who are now asking how much it will be, Adults not setting a good example, letting their kids run wild and free, No rules and no discipline, but we all just sit back and accept it’s how society is meant to be.Well I’m different, do you really want those kids looking up to a fool like me?
So, this is my latest song. It’s half complete. I did it today whilst looking at the gloomy rain :-)
I’m laying on my bed, looking up at the ceiling which I’ve watched too many times. I’m thinking over things which shouldn’t matter to me, anymore.. anymore. Looking over my shoulder again, its’ half twelve and afraid to sleep. Too much Caffeine, dossed up, playing with my head. Axieties and paranoia are my new best friends. Chorus. My friendsips have turned sour, relaitonships are shit, I’m a coward. Mind can’t rest as iit has no defence, you’re an nightmare and dream, all in one. I won’t sleep well tonight, oh no oh. It’s like my feelings are out of touch, I only love the things I’ve learn’t to hate so much, my heart’s an walking disaster.